Lexilou

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Beautifully said kayc! Helping others is a fantastic way to help heal your heart. I'm so sorry for your profound losses. I think the grief we feel forces us to dig deep with ourselves and, like you said, use what we learn through it. I am finding through losing my Lexi, I'm opening up to so many new and wonderful things. I would give anything to have her here with me, but knowing I will be with her again, comforts me deeply.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It is tough, I know, to find your way once your soul mate is no longer in the physical world. If church doesn't make you feel good, then don't go. Since my Lexi passed, I too habe tried to make sense of her sudden tragic death. I feel there has to be a greater reason for it. Since her death, I have began a journey of my own. A spiritual journey finding my true purpose. I have learned that everything, Everything happens for a reason. Sit with yourself. Let yourself feel whatever you feel and be ok with it. Be good to yourself. Get fresh air. Be in nature. Eat and sleep. I truly believe that when our pets pass they live on in the afterlife and visit us in spirit. If you talk to them and think of good memories in your mind, you will in time feel their presence around you. I recommend this book: The Amazing Afterlife of Animals by Karen Anderson. It helped me sooo much in the worst of my grief. Healing hugs to you❤

Mama looks like a very happy dog. Full of life and sunshine. I enjoyed reading your story. Blessings of love and I hope your grief lessens over time. You're doing all you can right now. Take care of yourself❤

I hope you find your way out of the crippling grief. I am still overwhelmed with grief myself, but am also reaching out to other groups, ideas, books, etc. I have found so much positivity through reading Karen Anderson's books. It is afterlife material, but I do believe in that now. I honestly feel as if my Lexi's sudden, unexpected death, was for me to find my path to a more spiritual way of life. For, I cannot believe that the manner in which she passed was for nothing. I know there has to be a reason and I am on the path of discovery. I still grieve her everyday. I cry, I call out her name. But, I am also searching within myself for the path I'm to take now. I'm 49. I better get busy!. I'm so sorry for your tremendous loss. It is grief that is, like you said, crippling. Hugs to you❤

Hi Debbie. Thanks for messaging me. I am getting along. I miss my girl intensely. I have found a group on a website called pet loss.com. it is a chat world wide. If you go to the site you will find others in our shoes. New ones old ones. So many. They have a candle ceremony every Monday night in your time zone. 9pm for me. I'm central time. Anyway, I invite you to this. Follow the instructions to create account. Its free and you can add your beloved to the tribute list. And tell your story. Everyone is great. Loving. Welcoming. I look forward to seeing you there if you so choose. Take care Debbie. Your baby is with you in spirit. I promise. Hugs. ❤❤

Thank you for this kayc. Very comforting with great insight. Hugs❤

Please reach out to the links Marty suggested. And YOU'RE NOT ALONE!!! I'm holding your hand and comforting you right now. ❤❤

Do you have anyone to talk to? I mean other than on here? I know it is awful pain.

Hi Debbie. How are you doing lately? Ive been thinking of you and hope you've found some comfort.

Ok. Thank you. I'm clearly not a tech genius. Lol

Marty and Kay... Sorry I havent quite figured out how to reply to individual posts/comments. Its a little confusing to me. I do love the obituary Marty. That is very insightful. And I know I need more time to grieve. Somehow, it seems as if it's been a lot more time than it has since she's been gone, you know? Like time is standing still right now... Do you feel that way?

Ive had a lot of friends and family tell me the best way to get over losing your dog is to get another one. I cant even imagine that. I dont know how I'll feel down the road. Right now, she's all I can think about. Its a longing. I cry less times a day, but the times I do, I cry longer. It is grief I never knew existed. That makes it difficult to imagine going thru this again.

Your love knows you and knows you would never hurt her. We are so good at blaming ourselves. It is useless to do as it has no meaning on the other side. Try to let go of the guilt. I am working on that now. It's hard but necessary to allow the light to come in. And they have so much light. It helps to talk on here to deal with my grief. My guilt. I hope you can focus on memories. As it helps you and it helps her. ❤

That was a message from her for sure. What ive been reading and hearing from this wonderful FB group is that when you feel something or you see something and you think of Buttercup, don't talk yourself into thinking it is just coincidence or your imagination. If it feels real, it's real. Its been a rough day for me but I'm slowly releasing the guilt. It's not stabbing me in the heart at every turn. Its there for sure, just seems to be lightening. I think because I know Lexi loves and adores me. She knows I would never do anything to harm her. And I say that in present tense because I know she is still with me. Her spirit lives on with me everyday.