roseaimee

Thank you all for your kind words.

I am so sorry for your loss. My dog had brain cancer and he had several seizures before passing. It was painful to watch. He was fine for 9 years until his first seizure.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I had answers or a magic wand.

Hobo King was an Australian Terrier that looked like a plush toy come to life. Full of personality with an adventurous spirit. He was only 9. He had a seizure and I rushed him to the animal hospital. With Covid 19 I had to just drop him off. After spending one night, he was released and put on seizure medication. The following week he had another seizure that lasted for nearly an hour. His seizure was not controlled by medication. He made it through the night. I took him to a neurologist the next morning to have a MRI in a different city. They diagnosed him with a tumor in his brain and told me he had 18 months. Then several hours after his diagnoses, I got the phone call recommending euthanasia. Due to Covid-19 they would only allow one person to be with him in his final moments. It was so sudden. I was not prepared to have to put him down. The hardest thing I have ever had to do was hold my baby while he died in my arms. I feel so guilty that I didn't look into his eyes as he took his last breath. I held him sobbing and told him I loved him. It was such a shock. He was the light of my life. He was my shadow. I would look around for him and he was always right behind me. He followed me since the day I found him. We would cuddle every night. He would curl up right next to me and I would wrap my arms around him. I called him my cuddle monkey. I struggled with depression. He could always tell when I was depressed. He would put his paws on my chest and put his nose by me ear and sniff. It would tickle and I could't help but laugh through tears. Since his passing, night time is the hardest. I can't stop sobbing. I miss him more than I can explain. That is why I am reaching out and telling his story.