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Jayjay

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    8-4-2020
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    Staten Island ny 10306

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  1. A beautiful tribute to your Sonny.He certainly was a cutie and those pictures tell a story of a great life together.I just put my 17 year old pug to sleep who had many health issues and we try to keep them as long as we can but there is a time when they are in too much pain and not happy and just trying to stay here for us and we can’t keep them anymore because they would suffer.You did so much to keep Sonny around and should Be grateful all the wonderful times you shared and will always have.You will always feel he is with you and miss him so much but in time it gets a little better when you can look back and smile at the beautiful life you both had.
  2. This is so true.I just lost my 17 year old pug Jaylo .I lost a dog a few years ago I was completely distraught hopelessly crying on the floor when my pug Jaylo came up and licked my tears on my face as they came down.They know when we are hurting and take care of us.Only those who have loved a dog knows this feeling.thank you Jaylo and all the other dogs who love us unconditionally.
  3. So sorry for your loss of Lizzie.I can tell she had a great long life with so much love .21 years is amazing time you spent together and treasure that and don’t think your weren’t there for her when she passed no one can know when it is time and you can’t be around all the time.She knows you were with her her whole life and loved her so much that is what matters.She will be at the rainbow bridge waiting for you wagging her tail when you meet again.
  4. I feel for anyone going thru this and thank you for your help and sharing your pain.thanks gms Gracie and kayc for the article I read it and it brings some comfort.Its hard to get to the point to forgive ourselves but at least there is no more suffering for our loved ones.You never really know how much pain they are in and if they really want to be here anymore but in my case she wasn’t happy and her life as a dog was gone.Yes she was walking ok sometimes eating drinking but it seemed just to survive.her tail wasn’t wagging she wasn’t doing much to live like she should.I wanted her here to hold talk to take care of but I don’t think it was fair to her.she only was happy eating and even that had to hand feed at the end.The doubt still remains however and I know it time I will remember her in happier times and maybe agree it was her time to go.i hope and pray others will also forgive themselves for ending their loved ones suffering .I know easier said than done but we all did whatever we thought was best for our loved companions.
  5. It just is so hard to think life goes on without your loved one.I had jaylo for over 17 years now she gone and won’t be back.So cruel it seems.More so I have guilt I choose to end her time here even though I know she wasn’t happy but still feel guilt.Could she have stayed a bit longer even with her ailments was it right decision by me.She was still eating though hand fed and drinking.she was walking okay but did fall and couldn’t get up many times.Her arthritis in her back legs was bad and she began lying in her poop and pee.Her heart pressing against her trachea making it difficult to breathe pushed me to let her go as I was afraid she would suffocate one day and almost blind getting stuck in corners with dementia setting in.But is is better to not be here.how can I ever be sure? I know I didn’t want her to suffer and she wasn’t happy as a dog I know only enjoyed eating.but to make that choice creates so much doubt and guilt.I felt this before so I know the feeling will slowly go away but to love so much and then end with such pain is just something I don’t anyone deserves to experience.Thanks for those who took time to listen and I know many here have felt similar pain.it just isn’t fair.
  6. Jayjay

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    It so sad to see how much you are hurting from the loss of your best friend.There are no words to soothe you only that know you shared a bond that can never be taken away even though you are not together physically.She will always be with you in your heart and grateful you found each other to love.I just put my 17 yr old pug to sleep who had many health issues and I still wonder if I did the right thing feel guilt and miss her every day.But it wasn’t fair to keep her here and suffer because she didn’t deserve to suffer and struggle to survive,she wasn’t happy and wasn’t gonna get better so even though we want them to stay with us forever we have to say goodbye when it’s time.I see how much pain you are in now missing her and I understand I’ve went thru it feeling so helpless and angry but remember the great life she had and the love you shared is a gift not many experience you are lucky you did.I hope you will feel a little better in time and you can heal even though the pain now can be unbearable Take care of yourself and cherish your best friends life with you.
  7. I am so sorry for your tragic loss.It is so hard to lose a pet but suddenly like this can be even more painful.i just lost my pug of 17 years put to sleep and just yesterday almost lost my 4 yr old ridgeback mix as my wife opened the door and even though I told her to watch and be careful our dog ran out in the street and a car just missed her and she continued running in front of the car a few seconds then somehow wasn’t hit but I too would probably blame my wife if something tragic would have happened I’m sure your husband feels terrible with guilt and sometimes accidents can’t be avoided but you should talk together or you will build up anger and I’m sure your beloved dog wouldn’t want to make you upset over this.She had a long life and great times with her family so don’t think of the end but think of all the happy times.I feel your anger but talk about it and mourn together that’s what your loved pet would want.
  8. So sorry for your loss of your loved companion.Be assured she had a great long loving life she shared with you and passed away peacefully T home with her family.That is the best way to lose a loved one when the time comes they have to leave I just had to put my 17yr old pug to sleep who had many health issues and I would have rathered she would have passed away at home like your loved one so it’s like a blessing she was home with all her family.I know it’s so hard but you gave her a great life and should be so grateful he was loved so long .try to think of all the happy times you had together take care
  9. One thing when you lose a loved pet you had cared for so muchLife might be easier now no cleaning up her soiled bed wiping poop off her backside moping the pee on the floor given her medicine holding her back legs up a bit so she could drink water hand feed her and have her nip me by accident helping her get out of corners picking her up when she couldn’t get up getting up in middle of night to help her out of bed of just to comfort her.Maybe life is easier but it’s Not better.I. Miss caring for her and she’s gone now and I put her to sleep to stop anymore possible pain she would have to endure.But I miss caring for her I guess that’s strange because it did put stress on me but life is not better with her not here with me.jayjay I miss you.
  10. I’m so sorry you lost up your beloved Coco.It is so hard lose a loving companion who shared life with you.I just lost my 17 yr old pug I put to sleep who had many health issues and sorry for your loss of Archie also it’s so hard.I can tell Coco was loved so much as well as Archie.You can only look back at the great memories you shared and the great life you gave them.The sadness and loneliness can be so difficult but that is the choice we made when we gave our love and received that unconditional love that is the best thing you can have.I will never give up that happeiness we had throughout our life even though I know the pain from not having them with us can be so unbearable.You loved and were loved and should be so blessed for that. The pain now hopefully will fade slowly and they will be in our hearts forever.I hope and pray everything will be a little better emotionally take care of yourself our loving companions were with us to make us happy and wouldn’t want us sad because they left us.take care of yourself
  11. Yes I hope to find peace and past the guilt part and into the missing my girl part .I can accept missing her as I know she was old and ready to pass and the rainbow bridge is the place where we can reunite..Good hearing support here I really needed it and I’m sure will continue to feel sad but will try to remember all the years we had together.thank you both
  12. Thank you Kayc that’s sounds like the same situation as my girl so I do feel better and take comfort I made the right choice.She wasn’t the same dog whimpered most of day not happy confused with anxiety..Yes she could have gone on a little while longer but like you said what for to be unhappy stressed and suffer.Her quality of life was very low and she was such a good girl she deserved better than to struggle just to survive each day.Thank you I felt she deserved better than suffering
  13. Thank you for your help and kind words.Yes Jaylo hopefully forgives me It is just so hard to do something like this and not feel I failed her.She didn’t have a terminal illness like Arlie but she had multiple health issues which made her life not much fun or to be able to live like a dog should.Her arthritis her dementia almost blind her heart pressing near her trachea really was the part I couldn’t see she would take deep breaths with her stomach expanding sometimes I know that must have bothered her so much.Then her starting to pee and poop and whine when she couldn’t get up out it it was heartbreakin She was able to walk a little off balance and fall a lot.It would have been an easier choice if she had a cancer or terminal illness but each case is different I guess.I will try to remember the happy times and maybe lose some guilt I feel.i know she had a long good life but just hate the end of it which is fresh in my mind.Thanks to all who respond and listen to my story .Take care
  14. I just put my 17 year old pug jaylo to sleep.Im heartbroken and guilty.She had many health issues bad arthritis in her back legs and spine her heart was pressing close to her trachea making it hard to breathe .She had dementia would pace back and forth get stuck in corners and try to squeeze into spaces.She had trouble getting up and was now peeing and pooping and lying in it most of the time but she would go out to pee when I took het but her meds lasix made her pee a lot.She would cry and whine a lot not sure if it was pain or anxiety as she was almost blind.She still ate well by hand feeding and would drink water with some help.her breathing was getting bad and the prior few nights she would have trouble sleeping I thought she might pass.She coughed most of day .Last night she actually slept well and seems a little better so I had second thoughts about putting her to sleep but didn’t.She didn’t seem happy walking crying whimpering only time she was happy was when she ate which she always loved.I have doubts if I did the right thing.I hated seeing her cry and sometimes lying down and cry.and also sitting in her urine and poop but usually I clean it up quick.She was walking ok this morning and just whined a little which makes me wonder some.i know she would go back to her not fun probably suffering life tommoroe but making the choice to let her go bothers me and feel so guilty and failed her.She was on many meds but didn’t seem to work as well.just so sad and empty.was her quality of life enough to let her go?thanks for listening
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