McKenzee

This is also my 1st Christmas without my dad, I really miss him. Like others have said I knew it was going to be a challenge to try to keep things a little normal. It seems harder when I am at work and everyone is so happy about their plans, I know they care about me but the people I work closely with have not lost a parent so they do not understand. I do not not have much patience and would really like to be left alone. My brother passed away in 2002 and tomorrow would be his 44th birthday. My father-in-law passed away in 2004 and my dad in May 2006. Now my sister-in-law has been diagnosed woth stage IV breast cancer. I just fell kinda helpless right now. Please say a prayer for me and our whole family and you will be in my prayers. Christian Love, McKenzee

Thanks for everything, this is a very helpful board. I have read alot these last few days and I hope I can take some of the advice and others experience and start to feel a little better. I just did not expect it to be so hard. Thanks again and have a good evening. Mckenzee

Good Evening, My Dad passed away on May 9, he was 72,he chose to stop dialysis after me and my mom had to make an immediate decision to start dialysis after bypass surgery. We both knew and he knew he had kidney problems before surgery and knew he did not ever want on dialysis but we felt we had to until he could really decide himself. He was on dialysis for about 9 months and always felt terrible. After stopping dislysis most people only live 10-14 day, he lived 5 weeks, 2 of which he was happier than he had been in years, we got alot of talking and crying done. He was at peace with his decision. Now the problem, I cant stop crying even after 7 months I feel kinda mad at him for leaving me, I would give anything to pick up the phone and just say Hi. I know you problaly think this is normal (whatever normal is) but I miss him so much. Mom and all the rest of my family seem to be handling thins better that I am. Anyone have any advice or info that might help. Thanks McKenzee