9/11/2020 I lost my little babygirl rose. We had just given the kittens baths and were putting them back into there sleeping spot meaning our laundry room. My mom went to put them back and the board that was keeping them in fell and landed on rose my kitten. We lifted it up and you could tell she had trauma to her head. She was paralyzed and I couldn’t do anything about it. I held her until she died and then after she died I couldn’t let it go. I didn’t want to believe she was dead. Now I still feel weird and upset about it last night I kept getting upset and then feeling fine and doing it over and over. I’ve never grieved like that before so I don’t understand it. I just don’t know how to handle it.
