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@Novi His name is Rocky and this is his picture And this is him when he's waiting for food This is him when he's on a car ride These few days I've been looking at his pictures, organizing them and print them out to keep in my album. By looking at his picture, it reminds me of all those happy and wonderful moments that we spent together. Thank you

I lost my old friend 2 weeks ago. It's been 2 weeks and I'm still stuck. He is a Rottweiler mix and I got him 10 years ago. He suddenly got hips dysplasia at his back leg and got really bad in just one month time, I've bringing him to vet for checkup every year and the report shows that he is healthy. But why, why he got hips dysplasia so suddenly, why he got so serious in just one month time, and I've been giving him supplements the whole time, I have so many questions to ask but no one could answer. He started limping months ago, I'm so worried about him and that is the time where I decided to seek for a remote job, it's quite hard for a fresher to get a remote job but I just did not want to give up. Many of my friends and family said that I should give up and get a regular job, and tell me to stop thinking about my dog and focus on my future but I just couldn't do it. I can't leave my dog alone, 10 years ago when I got him I've promise him that I will be with him when he was in his golden years. I even pray and hope that I could stay with him when he took his last breath. I've been searching for a job for the past six month, although I have financial financial stress I still want to get a remote job and stay by his side, and this is what I promise him. At that time I was on my own, no one believes in me except myself. One day when I woke up I just feel everything is not right, but I just don't know where that feeling came from, I had an interview in the afternoon, after the interview the feeling of something that is not right is getting stronger and stronger. I decided to sit at the side of my dog, pat him, talk to him, tell him that I got an interview today and maybe this time I was able to work remotely and I can be with him. After 1 hour, my dog stared at me, I have a really bad feeling, he took his last breadth, and he closed his eyes. I cried and I know that I lose him forever. It was so sudden, although I know that this day will eventually come but I just........I haven't prepare for this. Few days ago, he refuse to eat but he will drink. I brought him to the vet and the vet said everything is normal. Few days after he passed away, I met with the vet and the vet asked about him, I told the vet that he had passed away. The vet said, he is old enough and it's his time to go. I know I still feel sad and guilty, but I always ask myself is a 10 year old dog very old? But his fur is still so shiny, and his teeth is still there, he don't even have white hair. Is he really that old? No one could ever answer me. The next day he passed away, I got the job that I interviewed for but he is not there anymore. I feel lost. I this 10 years I walked him twice a day, cooked for him, play with him in the evening, say good night to him when I go to bed, buy him treats and fresh food and etc. Suddenly I got so many spare time and I don't know what to do. It's so weird and I'm not used to this situation. I refuse to look at everything that is regarding to dogs, Instagram post, YouTube video, Facebook pages and even online shopping platform because I bought a lot of doggie products and the platform kept recommending to me. My family member couldn't understand my feeling and they even taught that I'm crazy because I was down for so many days. They don't understand my feeling. My beloved dog accompany me through all those ups an downs in my life, I'll tell him all my problems and also share with him all my happy moments. I still remember that when I was in my internship, I refuse to work OT. Everyday I'll go back home on time just to bring him to the park, walk him and cook for him. All my colleagues know that I rush back home because of my dog. I hope that he is doing well up there and if possible give me a sign to let me know that he is fine. I feel lost, stuck and I do cry a lot.

After two years, there are something that I would like to share. Thanks to everyone in this group, I was able to go through my darkest moment in my life and receive the gifts that was gifted by god. This is Rainbow (ginger cat), she was a present from Rascal in the heaven In Jan 2021, I receive another present. Her name is Rio, she was a cheeky one. Then when I taught I already have enough happiness in my life, I met Elvis!! I met her in Nov 2021, she was found inside a car engine. Now I have 3 cats and one dog. That is a lot of happiness and laughter. Thanks to Rascal's present, he will forever be my boy and I will cherish the present that he sent me.

This happened to me 3 months ago. My cat (Rascal) got into an accident (1 month before he left), his healing process went very smoothly. I can't wait to see him wondering around the garden, pee on my lovely plants, create all those troubles. The day before he got his feeding tube remove, he went to his little box that I created for him, laying down and never wake up again. I keep asking why to myself. Everything went smoothly, the surgery was successful, he is still active and playful before the day he left. Nothing seems wrong. One day, when I go back to the vet office to return a box of instance diet that I bought for Rascal, I saw a lady carrying a box crying so hard. Her dog just passed away. At that moment, I can feel the pain of losing a beloved pet. From her situation, I felt grateful that the moment my cat passed away, I was by his side. He passed away without pain and fear. Everyday when I bring my dog for a walk I will stop by the place where I bury him, I'll talk to him like I used to do. One day, I told him to give me a sign telling me that he is ok up there, on my way back home I saw beautiful rainbow across the sky. The next day, a call came in saying that there is a kitten being abandon in front of my aunt's house. I felt that this is the present that Rascal gave it to me and a sign telling me to move on, saving more cats just like him (Rascal is abandon by someone at the shelter), so I named this cat Rainbow. I still miss him and will never forget about him. I believe that one day we will meet again!

There is a thing happen to me and I would like to share with all of you, My cat passed away on 1/11/2020, for the next couple of days I feel sad and lost. I do tell myself that I don't want to have another cat anymore as I'm afraid to lose again just like what @kayc mention. One day when I bring my dog for a walk, I look at the sky and I saw a very beautiful rainbow across the sky. The rainbow is so bright and glorious !!! I never see such beautiful rainbow in my entire life. When I went to tell people to look at the rainbow, it's gone. I'm the only one who sees it. I feel like this is the message that Rascal send to me, telling me to stop feeling sad and keep moving on. Rascal: "Hey~ I'm good up here, no worries for me!! I have a present for you tomorrow!!" The next day my mom receive a call from one of her friend saying that there is an abandoned cat in front of her house. I feel like this is the present that Rascal send to me. Wanting me to save another stray again.

I owned 2 cats but both of them didn't end well..... One day there is a grey cat appear if front of my dad's office, my dad fed him for a few days and we decided to bring her home because at night there is no place for her to sleep and all the restaurant nearby was closed due to covid-19 and sometimes there is stray dogs wondering around the buildings. The day she arrived at our home we were so happy. I tried to quarantine the cat so the she could get used to our presence and the surroundings and especially our dog. But, one day she just sneak out from the room and ran outside. I tried my best to search for her through social media, posters and etc but she was no where to be found. A few weeks later I adopted a 3 months old kitten. I named him Rascal because he is a little rascal in our house. The first day he arrived at our home, he jumped straight to our couch, challenge the dog, hide under the cabinet and scared us. Me and my family love him so much. On 7/10/2020 he ran into an accident. Till now I can't forget the image, the accident just happen in front of my eyes. In this accident he broke his left jaw and he got anisocoria for his right eyes duo to the accident. But I don't care, as long as he can recover from the injury, no matter how he became he will still be the cutest in our home. He was hospitalized for 7 days and I visit him twice everyday because I worried that he will scared to be left alone. So, the day he was discharged I need to learned how to fed him through feeding tube because he can't move his jaw so only paste like food is allowed to be fed but he doesn't ready for his food yet. I fed him 3 times a day, gently message his whole body so the he could feel better because he always have to wear his cone for the whole day other than feeding time. He is such a good boy, every time I pumped instant food through his feeding tube he will curled into a ball and lay on my lap for me to do my job. Then he started to bagged for his favorite wet food, so I blended all of them and try to feed him. I even went to market to bought some fresh chicken and salmon for him because these two is his favorite food. I blend the cooked chicken and salmon into paste and he seems to like it. But one day he started to sneeze and having watery nose, so I quickly bring him to the vet. The vet told me that he is catching a cold so they will put him on some antibiotics and some meds. After that he became "rascal" again, playing hide and seek with us, screaming for food again and again, having the whole couch. Then on 31/10/2020 he started to feel sick again, having runny nose and have a mild fever. I rushed to the vet and the vet said he is having fever, they gave him more meds. I was worried that he was having a lung infection because during that accident there is fluid inside his lung. But the doctor said there is nothing to worried about. The next morning 1/11/2020, he start to breath heavily, he refuse to eat even when I pumped the food through his feeding tube he will vomit out. So, I taught that maybe the fluid in his nose cause him to be like this. I look into his eyes and found out that his right eyes was back to normal !!! His pupil works just fine like the other eyes !!! I was so happy and so do my family member. We were excited for his recovery. On the same day, after I took my dog for an evening walk I found him laying inside his box just like he was sleeping except that he is not breathing, no response when I called him. At that moment I was shocked for a few minutes and so do my family member and I know that I lost him forever. I couldn't accept that this happens so quickly, I even make an appointment on 8/11/2020 with the doctor to bring Rascal to the vet to have his stitches out from his left jaw. He was buried somewhere near my house. Till now, every morning when I open my window I will look at the place where he was buried and say "Good Morning Rascal!" then I cried. When I look around the house I miss him. He was just about to turn into 6 months old and he left....... From these two experience I felt that I don't qualify to have a cat anymore. I used to love animal very much, I'll follow all the animal society webpage through my social media and learn how to take good care of animal from their post. But now I don't even dare to login to my social media account because whenever I see those animal picture especially cats I will think about Rascal.