During this pandemic and social isolation me and my boyfriend started living together and about 4 months ago we decided to adopt two pretty tabby kittens, Cookie and Link. Since it was my first time having a pet I thought I should adopt only one, but my boyfriend and friends convinced me two cats would be better since they make company to each other. So I adopted two sisters and called them Cookie and Link.
Link died yesterday.
I am currently at my family's house so I could spend the holiday with my mom and family at their house, which is far away from the city I live, so I left my kittens under care of my boyfriend and his family. My boyfriend and I would go on a trip for 4 days to the beach after I came back and they would be under care of my mother-in-law.
So, Link died yesterday and my boyfriend told me by phone He was going to a friend's house get a tent for our camping trip and left Link and Cookie with his parents. He was also not there when Link died. I was told she entered the couch and twisted her little neck. At first I thought it was a joke, then my boyfriend freaked out and I told him it haopens and he should calm down, then I realized my baby Link has died and freaked out too, and being crying since then.
I honestly never thought losing a pet would hurt this much, but me and Link were very close, she always asked me for affection and we often slept together, she followed me everywhere on our little apartment and would meow in a cute way when I served her food or hugged her. I spent so much time giving her my love and taking care of her and it's hard to believe I will never be able to hug her again.
She didnt deserve to die, she was such a cute and behaved kitten I cant believe she passed away.
I have a weight on my chest, I have told my bf and his family that this isnt their fault but I cant stop thinking that I should have brought Link with me, or asked someone else to take care of her, or that if they really kept and eye on her she wouldnt be dead
She suffered such an unfair death, I wanted she to get old with me, Cookie and my boyfriend, and she died so young..
I also think about Cookie, she and Link were sisters so they were always together playing, napping and sharing their life, this is so unfair! Why is Link dead??
My boyfriend and Link were also pretty close, he is also suffering and feeling guilty for her death, I can imagine.
I dont know what to say to comfort him, I dont know if we should still go on our trip where we would have friends and maybe free our minds a little, I dont know if I should adopt another cat to make the three of us company.
Yesterday I started searching for kittens to adopt, I thought Cookie needed a company. But honestly I thought a new cat would replace Link and now I realize no cat could ever replace Link and the special bond we shared in our time together. And this makes me sadder.
I just wanted Link back but I know this is not possible. It breaks my heart that I wount be able to share my life with her anymore.
I also dont feel safe in letting Cookie with my bfs family, maybe its unfair but I just cant help feeling unsafe and thinking this wouldnt have helped if she wasn't there.
I truly love my bf and his family has always been good to me, I know they are sad for what happened to Link, but I cant help myself with those thoughts, if only...
Honestly there is a lot going thought my head so I am here looking for comfort and maybe some answers...
Should I go to the trip? Should I still trust my family in law? Should I adopt another cat? Why did Link die?
I will love you forever Link, you were the best cat someone could ask for and I loved you very much 💔
