Hi everyone. My name is Tom and this week we had to let my first pet, Meatball go too soon at only 1.5 years old. We had taken him to the vet for a condition known as pillow paw and he was treated with medications one would give. His condition slowly got worse as the weekend wore on and his breathing became rapid and he became more lethargic. Our vet took x-rays and said he had asthma and prescribed another med. We followed those directions but things didn't seem right and took him to a veterinary specialists hospital where they took more x-rays and diagnosed him with congestive heart disease. He was such a young healthy boy and we had to make the awful choice of being with him or having him potentially pass later that evening alone. He had been struggling for a few hours and had not been improving. He was my first cat, my buddy, he'd meow back at me, follow me, greet me at the door. The impact in his short time made it feel as if I've always had him. His loss looms large in our apartment and I just feel like a part of me is missing. I know I'll always cherish the time and many memories we had but still can't help but be angry that I should have had more time with him. I am hoping to take it day by day, week by week. Thank you all.