Time isn't healing my broken heart.I list my dog fisher on September 11 2020.he was almost 15 yrs old.actually I feel worse as time goes by.almost like my mind was in shock and now reality set in.I feel angry and I drive by the vets everyday thinking I could have done more.he was old and had slot of issues but I did not want to give up.I did not want him to suffer.but isn't it goes plan,do we have that right to put our animals to sleep. I can't seem to let that go.I had almost 15 wonderful years with fisher.I am grateful and I will hold my memories in my heart always.I just feel I cant step over this,its like I can't let go.I don't want to feel sad all the time.I hate when people tell me in time you will you will heal.I have not.I miss him so much.I don't feel I can ever have another dog,I just can't face this type of grief again.I feel I'm one of the nutty ones lol that just can't move forward.I truly don't know how to move on.
