Hi Lori I am also feeling the same way. It's all so empty and home seems to be the only place that I do not feel that way. Every morning I go through the motions of trying to get ready to go and then it all hits me and I stay in more often than I should. I do ok once I do get out but do not want to be around more than one or two people at a time. I look around at everyone doing all there holiday stuff and say to myself-how can you just all go on like nothing happened-don't you know my world fell apart? Of course I know logically that they do not know my world fell apart but that is how I feel. Like Shell said, its the putting on the front and small talk that is so hard-if I hear are you ok one more time I think I am going to scream. At home we can just break out crying and no one can see. sad in az
