I had to put my dog down on Monday. I had her to three vets but within days she lost all use of her back legs and was dragging herself around and having trouble breathing from either the pain, the exertion or the medication and crying. One of the vets prescribed her gabapentin. The morning after She took it her back paws curled up losing the She of her legs. She couldn't go to the bathroom on her own but she was eating the turkey and rice plush drinking. I couldn't t take seeing her like that so I made the decision to euthanize her. I've been sick to my stomach, second guessing myself. I just lost my job, my dad, my last uncle in the space of a month in Oct of 2019. I am lost without her and don't know how to handle her loss.