I just feel so lost. The best friend I ever had died in September 2020. We were friends for 40 years, had been intimate when we were younger. She laid down for a nap and never woke up. I saw a therapist, thought I was doing so well then the anniversary of her came around and I just fell apart again. I just don’t know what to do, how to get past this. I loved her, I can’t figure out how to live now.