You just described how I feel. I cannot cry anymore, not because I don't want to or I don't feel pain, but because aindont feel anything but emptiness. The idea of a life without him, does not make sense. I don't want that live. I want to hold him, kiss him, hug him to sleep.
I cannot breath nor do I wish to breath. I am cutting myself because while I feel the pain in my skin, for a few moments, I don't feel it inside of my body. It is like a hole, a huge hole that has taken away all my hopes, all my happiness.
I am taking pills everyday but nothing,nothing can bring him back. I am trying to live too, for him. Because he wouldn't want to see me dying. But it's getting so hard. Why my baby? Why?
Ztyu123, I don't know you and I don't even know your name, but I hug you, I feel you, I wish I could help you.