I lost my dear grandma 2 y ago , I lived with her all my life , it was strong relationship that why I couldn't handle it , at the start I met new ppl to distract myself from that fact , moved to my grandpa house after a couple of months he died too , at that time I used to dream about her everyday to a point it's started to annoy me , everything that trigger a memory of her or him I would avoid including ppl , I started to use substance it's worked in a way that I don't think about her or the fear that I will loose someone else , now I don't dream about her much last time it happened I Woked up crying , today I missed her and opened a vedioe of her I cried but at the same time I couldn't recall clear memories of her and me , as if I don't know her as if she was a stranger , is that normal , I thought if I forgotten her I'll be ok but now that it's happened it feels weird , or is this the end of my grief to her , I erised her from my memory , did this ever happened to someone before?
