I've read many posts on this site and I'm so sorry to you all. I too lost my younger brother, Tom, on June 19th, 2006. He was only 24. He was my only sibling. He died in a terrible car accident. He was drinking and driving. He was the only person that died. No other cars were involved. He went off the side of the road, overcorrected and went off the other side down into a ditch crashing into several trees. They say he died instantly, but only God knows that forsure. I am so angry right now. I miss him so so so much. Words fail to express my feelings. My family is so sad. I am trying to be strong for my mom, dad, my husband, and my two-year old daughter, but I'm falling apart on the inside. I just can't imagine living the rest of my life without him and I hate the fact that my daughter won't even remember him (other than what she hears when she grows up). Tom was a great brother, uncle, son and friend. There were almost 500 people at his funeral. I wear a necklace that holds his ashes everyday, but I find it hard to even look at his picture or think about him. I try to block it all out. It's just too much to deal with. I pray for a sign from him, but either they never come or I miss them. I just need to know he is okay. We weren't raised in a religious family, so I'm not exactly sure what his beliefs were about God and death etc. And that is so hard for me. If anyone wants to talk to me and can relate to this, PLEASE email me. I need to talk to someone who can actually relate to this, not just people that think they can. My email address is: amymspecht@yahoo.com I'd love to hear from you if you've been through this too. Thank you all for listening. God bless you and your family.