They say that as time passes, it becomes easier; however, on 3/24 it will be one year since I lost my mom and it hurts just like it happened yesterday. Just typing that has me in tears. I miss her voice, her smile, I miss just knowing she is home with my dad. I find myself blocking it out and pretending or imagining that she is at home. I realize that's a form of denial, but I'm just struggling with the reality.
If I feel any type of happiness or if something makes me laugh, I feel guilty. Will I ever feel like myself again? My husband and I were talking about how difficult this has been for me and he suggested that I see a grief counselor. I believe that's what I need to do as well, I'm just not sure how it will help. I don't think talking to someone is going to make it hurt any less, but hoping that maybe someone here can give me some advice or suggestions. I'm just at a loss.
Thank you,
Robbi