It’s coming up to a year since I’ve lost my grandma..it’s been the hardest time of my life..I can’t move forward or do anything..I feel so much guilt cuz we wasn’t on the best of terms wen she passed and it breaks my heart..I can’t talk about her I can’t look at her pictures I just feel so guilty tht I had treated her badly just before she passed..the worse thing is I could of apologised to her but my stubbornness got the better of me and I will have to live with tht all my life..my heart hurts so much I dunno wat to do..everyone is moving on with there life and I can’t do tht..I miss her so so much it kills me..we was very close and like all families u have arguments I just wish I cud of said sorry to her and tell her I love her so much..I don’t think I will ever be ok my heart will always hurt..I miss you my beautiful grandma wish we cud be together inshallah one day we will and I can’t wait to be with u again ❤️
