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Melanie310

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  1. I just want to say thank you to all who replied to my post. I thought that I had finally found a place where people were concerned. I have finally figured out that grief is something that MUST be dealt with alone. Melanie
  2. I just want to say thank you to all who replied to my post. I thought maybe I'd finally found a place where people were concerned. I have finally realized that grief is something that you MUST deal with alone. There just isn't any other way. Melanie
  3. Hi, My name is Melanie, and I'm new here. I've been reading a lot of these posts, some have really made me cry. I lost my Mother on 1/13/99 to cancer. With the help of my Father and Hospice, I was pretty much her sole caregiver. Watching her die was horrifying, watching her go from the active, funny, smart, wonderful person that she was, to having to bear the agony of the pain and the disgrace of this horrible disease. In June, right after her death, I got married, and he turned out to be the most horrible abusive man I think I've ever encountered. I didn't know that there could be such mean people in this world, but there are. If I cried for my Mother, I got hit, called names, etc. So I just shut down, I had to, and I finally escaped that marriage, other things happened, and I am just now, 5 years after her death, grieving for her. I started really grieving for her I guess early last spring. I can remember really feeling the pain of her loss then, and it was agonizing. Then, on May 27th, 2003, my Dad died unexpectedly, out of the blue, no warning. There are a lot of circumstances that I won't go into about his death concerning my "step-mother", and my sister, but I will say that they hurt me terribly. My Dad had been taken to the emergency room at 10 am the morning he died, and nobody bothered to call me until it was too late. I live an hour and a half away from where he was. And I'm so bitter towards them. My step-mother has never liked me, and I have recently found out that she didn't want my Dad to be around me, so for the past 3 years, I didn't have much of a relationship with him because of her. I did talk to him on the phone a lot though, and that brings me some peace. But what bothers me the most is the fact that my Dad didn't have to die. He died, in part, due to negligence and unconcern on the part of the Dr. that was attending him that day. He died of a ruptured aortic aneurysm. The story is just incredible. It's sickening. I hate that Dr. I haven't ever really HATED anybody in my life, but I do him. So now I'm grieving for both my parents, they were fairly young still, she was 66 and he was 70. And I'm so horribly depressed. I don't want to get dressed anymore, I don't want to leave this house, I don't want to cook, I have gained weight from drinking tons of Pepsi, I have feelings of despondency, I feel like I have no future. I have nobody to talk to, I have moved to a new town/state, and have no friends at this time. Can't afford therapy. I'm really scared. Is it normal to feel this depressed? I don't know what to do. Melanie
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