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  • Birthday 06/01/1969

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  1. jencins, I am sorry for your loss. I lost my cat suddenly, he was fine happy, healthy and full of pep and then one friday he was hiding in the corner wouldnt let me pet him, i knew somethign was wrong that not shadow at least with me it wasnt.. and by wednesday we had to put him down, there was nothing they could do for him.. they said he was Septic.. basicly something ruptured inside him and the toxins shut his system down.. i still dont understand why or how.. or what ruptured for that matter.. i will not step foot in that vets office again.. it wasnt the dr.. just me. Its is so heart wrenching when you loose our best friends, especially when its just so suddenly.. All we can do is keep them in our hearts and think about them, she will come to you i truly believe that. she will let you know she is ok. and maybe you will feel alittle more at peace. Take care of yourself.
  2. First id like to say i am sorry for your loss. and second thank you for your reply. It's funny how ours cats know our deepest secrets and the heartaches we have been through. They are (were) our best friends. WE never seem to have enough time with the ones we love whether is a person or our adoring pets. Shadow was MY first pet ( & my first cat) on my own, it was me & him..he was my room mate. when i got a 2nd cat, he would kick her butt everytime she came near me.. i had to seperate them for wks he went straight for her throat. When we met, he was in a cage at a pet store in the heat of the summer and he stuck his paw out of the cage at me when i walked past and CRIED like no tomorrow.. HE TOLD ME HE WAS COMING HOME WITH ME.. its true what they say about cats they pick you and YOU are honored to have them in your life.. when i sit at my computer he would come over and stretch his front paws on my back and then jump up on me. well a few wks after he died, i was sitting at my computer and i felt him stretch on my back.. I swong my chair around so fast.. my dog jumped from his nap and i ran to see where my other cat was.. i know she wouldnt do that .. .that was all shadow.. well she was sound asleep on the bed.. I just called out to him.. i know your here with me.. and i love u & miss you terribly. At night i think he is next to me.. of course its josie... but i can dream. well ive babbled enough.. I wanted to give you my condolences and thank you for your kind words.
  3. I cant seem to move on at least a little, its been 6 months and it gets worse everday.. i am just devestated i dont care about anything.. i feel like im in a deep depression i dont want to go to work, get out of bed, be with people, i just want my cat back, I am so angry and the anger just gets worse everyday I refuse to go to church cause i am MAD AT HIM for taking my cat away from me.. the more i think about it the worse i get.. i swear i think people think im nuts.. They tell me it will get better & i snap at them and say WHY ARE YOU BRINGING MY CAT BACK>??? and they just look @ me like im crazy.. ! whats crazy is i am so worried that he is alone and he wont play with the others up there he never liked anyone but me and now i have let him down by not being there for him. i just want to be with him.. i just want to hold him and kiss him and have him stare at me again like i am the only person who mattered to him GOD i miss that look i miss those eyes those crazy meows and Most of all his love.. the love he gave me unconditionaly the love he gave me even after i yelled at him not to eat plastic or after i had to cut his nails which he hated and he would come right back to me and love me!!! all i want is him back with me where he belongs.. and i know nothing will bring him back.. Its me that has to get to him!! We had a deal... he wasnt supposed to die! i would tell him all the time shadow you just cant ever die on me i will have to be put in a rubber room... and the worst part is i feel like i really NEED a rubber room.. i am going nuts without him..
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