I'm not sure if this will help.... but we will see.... My mom passed (oh man, it's very hard to write that) on February 10th... She was 58, i am 31. I hate writing in the past tense.... A friend recommended this site for me to check out, cause I'm going through an absolutely awful grieving process. I still talk to Mom, everyday, and tell her I love her. She is/was the most wonderful, inspiring, nonjudgemental, caring, loyal, carefree, sincere, loving, non selfish woman I know. I admire her strength and courage to fight that awful cancer she had.... i wish the cancer didn't win. it was too quick too. she got diagnosed in august of last year... and the doctors said she has 1 to 2 years to go..... uggggggggg I love you Mom! Please give me a sign you are with me one day... and I will patiently await that truly beautiful moment... until then, i will continue to see you in my dreams..... As the sorrow and pain go on, Until next time, Jody