ON THE 13TH OF FEB I LOST MY HUSBAND, BEST FRIEND AND LOVER. HE HAD SUFFERED FROM STAGE 3 LUNG CANCER SINCE NOV OF 2000 AND WAS TOLD JUST BEFORE CHRISTMAS OF 2003 THAT IT WAS IN REMISSION. THEN ON JAN 25 WE FOUND OUT THAT THE CANCER HAD SPREAD TO HIS BRAIN AND 20 DAYS LATER HE PASSED. I FEEL SO ALONE. WE HAVE 3 WONDERFUL CHILDREN THAT HAVE TRIED TO BE THERE FOR ME BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME. I HAD LEFT THE HOUSE TO GO TO THE STORE AND GOT A FRANTIC CALL FROM MY DAUGHTER WHO WAS EXPECTED OVER THAT DAD WAS LYING ON THE FLOOR. I LEFT THE STORE AND BEAT THE AMBULANCE TO OUR HOUSE TO FIND MY SOUL MATE ON THE FLOOR DEAD. 1/2 HOUR WAS ALL I WAS GONE. I TRIED TO GIVE HIM MOUTH TO MOUTH AND CPR TO NO AVAIL. MY HEART, MY SOUL, MY WHOLE SELF FEELS SO LOST. I TALK TO HIM EVERY DAY AND MISS HIM EVERY SECOND. I FEEL AT TIMES THAT I'M GONG CRAZY. PLZ IF THERE IS ANYONE WHO HAS GONE THROUGH THIS AGONY PERHAPS WE CAN TALK. MBK
