My name is Mcky (not my real name), 23 years old and I'm from Singapore. I am the only child in the family of me, my 59-year old mother and my 64-year old father. Well, that was used to be until I lost my mother to Pneumonia recently on 12 Nov 2006. The disease came up all of a sudden and my mother was feeling very ill. After admitted to Intensive Care Unit section of the hospital, she died within 10 hours. Till now, I am feeling extremely sad. I love her so much, why did God have to take her away? It's true I committed sins against her but she managed to forgive me before her last breath. I and my father are still emotionally shocked over what happened and wished all this was just a nightmare. But it is not. It is for real. Now, without a mother, I really have a hard time taking care of the house. I have never faced this type of situation before. My father keeps blaming me for her death almost every day that I can't cope with life anymore. I am feeling depressed and have to resort to masturbation to relax my mind which I know is a sin to do. I can't concentrate on my daily job as a librarian for I am always thinking about her. There would be tears flowing out of my eyes at unexpected times. Please, anyone, what can I do to overcome this extreme grief that I'm facing now? Thank you all in advance.
