I don't know how I am supposed to feel. My father unexpectedly passed away from silent ischemia, at the age of 42, on September 15. It's coming close to the "6 month" mark. My circle of friends no longer exist because they say I have been rude and "distant" lately. I am now 21 and I feel like I am supposed to be "OK" by now, accordingly to everyone else. But, unfortunately, I am far from it. I cry everyday. My dad was a controlling dad, which I now understand and respect. I made sure that he approved nearly every decision I made in my life, until he was gone. All of a sudden, I had to make decisions on my own. I know that may sound dumb, but I feel like I can't function without him. I have two younger brothers (13 and 15). They have lost so many interests that they used to have. My dad seemed like the glue that held our family together, and I just don't know what to do. I feel like my family is falling apart. I feel like I am supposed to somehow fix it. As much as I want to do that, I don't know how. And now I have lost not only my wonderful father, but also all of my close friends. Is it normal that your whole life seems to completely fall apart?
