fairyqueen

hi, i lost my dad 6 months ago, also to liver cancer. i have so many days where i think im never going to cope.. i feel so alone in life sometimes. until recently i tried coming on sites like this, and finding other people in situations like mine.. so far nobody has replied to my posts though, but its a comfort to read that other people are in situations similar to mine.

Im touched by the supportive comments on here, it really is fantastic to read that im not the only person in this situation, and there are other people feeling the same things. I like to think of the times we had before he got ill, the happy memories, like holidays, listening to music, playing the violin and him accompanying me. I think of him in heaven, or wherever he is in the sky (theres a star that i see at night that twinkles, and i think thats him) and what he will be doing, or thinking. Its comforting to think of that. I did plan to post to your comment and offer advice, but i've realised that i cant really do that, because everyone is different.. i guess we can only offer each other support. Does anyone else think like that??

Hello, im new here, and nobody seemed to be talking in the teens bit, so i thought id write a message in here, because i came on here to try and find people similar to my age, with similar experiences. I lost my dad on October 10th 2003. He had a carcinoid tumour in his liver that was discovered 5 years before that. He was told he had cancer on my 10th birthday. He had many operations, and cancer treatments like chemotherapy, but after a long struggle he died in a hospice in our city. I live with my sister who is 7, and my mum. We are happy, but i feel really sad sometimes, because i miss my dad. I was very close to him, and we were very alike in the way we were both musical, and things like that. He was a professor of music theory and he wrote many books and composted pieces of music. Towards the end of his life he developed a computer program to anaylise music, and find out the cord structure or something?! (im very proud of him, i boast a lot, it makes me feel better to know that he did something in his life that was so fantastic... or i think so anyway) Well anyway thats enough about me i guess, but i would be grateful if anyone would get in contact if they are of similar age (14), and circumstances. Its just gone past 6 months, and im beginning to feel very sad a lot of the time. thanks xxx