Lilwolff

I am so sorry, I know they seem like words you have heard over and over and the pain and anquish is so unbearable and this is something no words will ever take that away. Perhaps time will. My husband died unexpectedly last November and still the pain is totally unbearable and totally overwhelms me. Even though I was not involved with hospice with my husband's death, I have observed these helping hands people through their work with a friend of ours and also my mother-in-law that just passed last August, right before my husband's death. I went to hospice counciling that is open to everyone here in my area and they said that first year is going to be hard. It will be the year of first without your mate. This is going to be very very hard!! Please hold on, take it moment by moment, that is all we can do. Let the tears flow, the anger flow, let each emotion come through and fully wash over you. Don't deny your grief and please accept whatever help you are offered or can get. I encourage you, if you can to get counciling from hospice in your area, they helped me to recognize that even though I don't think so and I am so very afraid sometimes, that grief is normal, a honoring of the people we have lost, and in time it will still hurt but might be easier for us to carry and still carry on. Thank you for writing this, I know I am not alone in my feelings of this being unbearable, even after these few months. I wish I could say more or do more for you, but the only thing I can really do is what you did for me... let you know you are not alone..