I lost my brother on March 19, 2004, He was 37 and has 2 kids 9 and 6 and he and I had a computer business. It took me about 2 weeks to go back to work, but I think of him daily.. It drives me nuts, the what ifs and I should have... I realy miss him. he was not sick he fell out of the back of a truck and hit his head. I guess there was nothing that could be done, I ask god why take my brother and leave the drunks here.. I don't understand... What is the deal? I just don't get it! He was loved and sometimes miss understud. I worked with him almost everyday but now that he is dead I take the time to read over his posts and I have learned so mush about him, I missed out on so much, Beleave it or not I never post on forums, but now IU have 2 of them. both were his, www.bamahome.com and www.baybimmers.com I still hold back on the posting because I don't know many of the people on there. I am just at a bursting point today and I need to vent. How long will this go on? I stay up late at night, my brother did also. we used to talk most of the time at 1am than we did during the day. Some nights I stay up and hope that he will call me or give me a sign that I am doing the right thing by him and his kids. We have a close family but my borther and I were the only PC friendly ones in my family. I miss that, I have noone to talk to about computer stuff now, my other brother and I talk about some stuff but he has no idea about a computer. so we talk about other stuff. I guess I will stop typing now. Thanks for listening
