I just found this site, and I am so sorry but I need to rant and yell SO bad. It looks like its safe to do it here. My husband passed away at Christmas on our 1st wedding anniversary. He was 56. oh 56 just isn't fair, we had plans of growing old together. If only there was a magic thing that I could do to bring him back. Sometimes I just look at the door, expecting him to walk in with his big smile and a big hug. Yes, there's so many things I could have done differently if I'd have known that we only had one year to spend together. That man used to be so proud to introduce me as his wife, and I was so proud to be his wife. Im sorry to rant, every one here has the same grief. I just need to get it off my chest so bad.