I am new to this site. We just lost our precious son Daniel on May 9, 2004. Daniel was 15 years old, he would of turned 16 in September. The doctors never thought he would live until he was 10 years old. Daniel was a normal healthy baby when he was born. At 7 months old he contracted bacterial menegitis and was not expected to live. Due to this Daniel had many medical problems. The doctors kept telling me all the negative things that would happen, but I would not accept that. We worked with Daniel and he acheived many things that they said he never would. He was part of our family and went and did everything we did. We have two other children, a daughter 19 years, and a son 17 years. They were also very close to Daniel and are dealing very hard this. The last seven months Daniel has been with hospice here at home. I knew that the day of his passing would come and I thought that I would be ready for it, but I was not. Daniel passed in my arms on mothers day and I feel so empty. I know that I need to be strong for my husband and my other two children but I just dont know how to do that right now. I dont know how to deal with these feelings. I just keep wishing I could go in and get Daniel from his bed and cuddle like we always did. I know that he is in a better place now with God, and that he is whole and can walk and see everything. I try and keep telling myself that, but it just hurts. I thought maybe talking to other mothers might help.
