I just wanted to reach out to others in my position. This is the hardest time of my life. I understand the course and what I read, but the pain and anticipation of separation from my loving best friend is the strongest pain ever. I try to understand that he has given me and taught me how to love and in the end of his precious life how to grieve. Only, I don't really know how to do this. He was a healthy happy dog. Loving and caring and well, just too wonderful. He and I spent all of his life together playing, and working, and we were never apart. Now. . .he is slipping away. The arrangements have been made. The vet will come to our home. The cremation marble is picked and it will be private. I hold candlelight ceremonies to honor him and all of the other dogs that have gone on before him and all that follow him. Crying is ok. I am not sure about when. . .just that everyone says I will know. I take him to the vet every week so that they could check him out. Every week (two now) we come home armed with pain meds. I have come to the conclusion (though it changes by the moment) that Max loves water. He loves the beach. He forced me to look into dog beaches and we found a gorgeous one. We call it Maxwell's beach. My husband says that he should go only every other day. I disagree. If you were given say seven days to live, would you want to have fun everyday, or stay home hopeless and sad. I say that he should go out doing what he loves. Who knows. Anyway, I am here if anyone feels similar, different, or has advice. I even had an animal communicator come and work with us so that my message wasn't crossed. Beware of those folks. Check it out. Some are authentic, but ours wanted to sell us on lots of things and accused me of not wanting to try alternative methods to heal my dog. Please pray for Max. I pray for all of the dogs and owners in the world. We are lucky and blessed. Animal folks are giving and loving. They (we) are a special breed.
