I am lost without my sweet beautiful everything 12 year old daughter, who also died on Mother's Day. Alecia was diagnosed with cancer in October 2003 and fought with such courage and dignity and optimism and grace, continually amazed us all that she could keep smiling and making us smile through it all. She ended up needing a bone marrow transplant, which was a horrific thing for anyone, but especially a kid to endure. We brought her home to die the end of April. They gave her days, she stuck around almost 2 weeks. I miss her so much, it hurts beyond words!!! There are days, many of them, that I feel I can not possibly go on, and I don't want to. But, I am a single/divorced parent and have a 6 year old son who still needs me. I do and always will look forward to the day when I can be with her again!! God, how I look forward to that day!!!!!!!!! In the meantime I am reminded continually of the line from Sleepless in Seattle, where Tom Hanks is talking about reminding himself to breathe in and out, and remembers how he had it good and perfect...once. I never could have imagined the deep deep deep seering crippling crushing devastating pain I feel every waking moment.
