Hy Rosmary, I'm so sorry for your loss, I understand exactly what you going througe. I've lost my beloved cat - joey , also almost three months ago, and I feel so sad and lost without him. he was like a son to me, and he was so cute and beautiful. A car hit him outside, and some people called me, and called to the vet too, the vet came and we took him to the clinic, but there was'nt much he could because he had blood injury inside his boody, and he was in shock also, and he died after an half an hour later. I'm also not the same person I was, no one understand what i'm going through. most people say: "take anouder cat, it will help you", they don't understand it's not a toy.I'm going to a therapist now, so he will help me to dill with the pain that is so hard. I can't even look at his pictures yet. I will be very happy to talk to you, and we could share our emotions and help each other. Nili