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Greg_P

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    Parkland Hospital
  1. Im very new to this board but I need to get my feelings out and I am also typing from the top of my head so please excuss structure. Two days ago the love of my life my true soulmate was taken from me in an armed robbery. Now Im crushed I feel so empty. I dont even know how to put this all into words. I have a large base of friends and coworkers who are all very supportive but I always seem to be just on the edge. My feelings of guilt, saddness, and anger or are overwelming. There are times I just want to quit. I think of all the small things im going to miss. Goint to the store with her, watching TV togeather, reaching out and just touching her, seeing her smile, calling me at work and telling me she called just to hear my voice, all the little cute things we did for each other. I really feel sometimes I cant take it. That first night at the hospital I thought about joining her so we chould be togeather agine. I wasn't even able to to say goodbye as the brain dammage left her body alive but takken her mind, she was only being supported by life support. As I said my final words over her I promised her I would join her when my time had come and I wouldn't cause that to happen. I take some solice in that my last words to her where "I love you". I no longer fear death. I have have huge feelings of guilt everytime I try to make myself feel any better. I wonder for a second if there will ever be anyone else and then Im washed in guilt. I really dont know how to go on ..... I cant even see tomorow. Greg
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