TamarasMom

Thanks Penny I will look into the site you suggested. I don't want to go on like this. I keep hearing that time makes things better, but that's no solace for the anguish I feel at the present. I know that God is there and my life is richer for the ones who have gone on to be with Him, but the emptiness that's left behind is overwhelming. Thank you for taking the time to pray for me. I will make sure that I pray for you because your heartfelt words were appreciated.

My daughter Tamara passed away suddently Nov 16, 2002 at 8:01 pm. Tam had just celebrated her 26th birthday three weeks before she died. She to our knowledge had not been sick. I left her at 7:15 and 46 minutes later she was dead. They said there was a problem with her heart. The pain sometimes is so unbearable until I feel like crawling in a hole and dying myself. But she left a 10 month old, who is now almost 2 and a half and she is one of the reasons I do go on. My family all seem to have been able to cope but my heart hurts every day. I've been to counseling and that helped some, but how do you get past the days and nights, the missed phone calls and surprise visits. As I watch that little girl grow into a little replica of her mom, it hurts all the more. Just a few months before Tam died, I lost my uncle who was like a father to me, and two months after that my aunt (his wife) passed away. They were parents to me and helped me to raise my children. I was in the military and they were always the ones who cared for my children in my absence, and seven months later I lost my Tam. I'm unhappy and don't know where to turn. My other children ages 23, 22, and 17 try to comfort me as best they could. I go through the motions but inside I'm a wreck. Most people will sympathize, but they really don't understand.