goldsunshine897

My heart goes out to you. I keep wondering how many years will I feel the lonliness that I feel. there are so many similarities between your story and mine. when my Bruce was sent to a hospice I spent the 1st night with him. Then I told him that I'd be back the next day and everyday. Even though his cancer had spread to his liver by then, I still thought he had more time. That night at 2a.m. something told me to call the hospice, but I didn't bother because he was to weak to answer the phone anyway. A minute later they called me to say that he had passed away. I get the feeling that it was his choice to go then because he was a man with a lot of pride. He did not want a lot of people seeing him like that. I'm sure that Bruce is as irreplacable to me as your Eddie is to you. If you need to talk I'm here.

May God bless you Jolee. My heart goes out to you because I know exactly what you're feeling. The worst part of this is probably the unexpectedness of his death. I too lost my soulmate- 3 weeks ago. What's irritating are the people who want me to "hurry up and get over him". It's only been 3 wks! I lived with my boyfriend for 8 yrs and I can't see enjoying life without him. This is hard for both of us, and if you ever need for someone to listen I'm here.

Hello everyone. I just lost my boyfriend to pancreatic cancer 3 weeks ago. we lived together for 8 years and he was a major part of my life. He was my 1st kiss, 1st date, etc.. so his death has turned my whole world upside down. I just wish I could show the whole world how great a man we all lost. He had a larger than life personality which perfectly complemented my shy, quiet nature. How could someone so funloving and strong be taken out of this world- and away from me. I don't cry as much as I would have expected, I think that I may still be in shock. He was diagnosed only 1 month before he died. I cried more when he was in the hospital, it was a big adjustment for me to accept that he was sick. Why him? I just need help with the intense lonliness that I feel. I'm afraid that I'll be alone forever. I think that reading all the posts on this site will help me to see that I'm not alone so I'll come here regularly. I chose the name goldsunshine 897 because I thought it would uplift me.

Hello, I'm new to this site. I just had to respond because your situation sounds so similar to mine. I just lost my boyfriend of 8 yrs to cancer. We lived together and he was the love of my life literally. He was my first everything: 1st kiss, 1st date, etc.. I too am a little uncomfortable in our apartment since he died- 3 weeks ago. I may have to move. But I'm so sorry that you have been having such a hard time grieving. Please consider living with family or getting a roommate because you shouldn't be alone. I'm a little scared of the idea that I'll never find a man like my Bruce. If you wish to talk I'm here.