I lost my Mom, March 27, 2004 on a Saturday @10:45 pm. She had Alzheimer's, she was 86, I am 56. It doesn't matter how old she was, I was not ready to let her go. Don't get me wrong I didn't want her to suffer anymore, she had become the child, I was the parent, we were real close. The last two years of her life she didn't know who I was. I was the lady who went to see her everyday. The last year she quit talking, but she would still smile and giggle alot. Then she quit opening her eyes, the last two months she didn't get out of bed anymore. I was there holding her hand, stroking her hair and telling her how much I loved her and how much I was going to miss her. I have four siblings, one hadn't seen Mom in three years, the others saw her on her birthday only. We all live in the same city. Sad isn't it? When President Reagan, died it brought it all back to me. Since then I have been depressed, lonely, crying at the drop of a hat. My marriage is suffering. My husband told me " It's over, you can't do any thing about it, get on with your life." He doesn't understand how much I miss her. I feel like I have lost everything. She was in a nursing home for three years, and the residents and staff had become my family. I lost my beloved Mother, and them. I don't want to do anything. I get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed and then I shut the front door and stay home and do nothing. Is this normal? Will it get better and how long before I feel like living again?