Dear everyone who replied, Thanks for advice. I really am doing the best I can with all of this. Its so hard to deal with sometimes. Im losing so many friends along the way. I keep getting into arguements with one of em for something stupid that hes making a big deal out of. Its so stressful because ever since she died its like I have become a whole new person. I speak my mind a whole lot more. For some reason I threw this tantrum because my step dad snatched my computer when I was still using it. It made me really mad I guess, that I just couldnt help it and started crying. I don't know whats wrong with me. I wish I could just go back to being myself again. All I ever feel like doing is sleeping but even when I try I cant because I get these dreams about my grandma that wont go away. And because of these dreams I have I am almost scared of everything around me. Im scared to go into the car because I had a dream my mom my grandma and I got into a really bad accident and so Im scared it will happen. Im scared to be around some of my family because I had dreams of them killing my mom my grandma and of course me. All my dreams lead to us dying. I mean..why? Sometimes I feel like my grandma is trying to tell me something through my dreams but other times I think im just losing it. When I was younger I used to wonder about how things would be like when she passed away and now that I know I dont want too. tear...