Anita... first let me offer my condolences. I lost my husband on August 13th in a truck accident, so it's fresh for me, as well. I only wanted to say that I, too, have a hummingbird story. I hadn't met anyone before you that had a similar experience, so it prompted me to respond to your post. About five or six days after my husband's death, I was sitting on the porch, talking on the phone to my mother. My head was bowed and I was just feeling overwhelmed. When I lifted my head there was, just out of hands' reach, a hummingbird. Bear in mind that there are no hummingbirds in my neighborhood that anyone's seen, and no feeders or anything up. In the 4 years that my neighbors have lived here, they've never seen a hummingbird, and neither have I in the year we've lived here. It just hovered there in front of me, facing me, watching me, for probably 10 seconds or more. I could just hear my husband's name in my head, softly... and then I felt peace. As soon as the peace washed over me and my tears dried up, the bird cocked his head at me for a second and flew away. I've seen him twice more... once that same day, perched on my windchimes, just watching me, and once about a week later, hovering in front of me again (that time a friend happened to be with me, so she got to see him, too). It was a very special moment. So, you're not alone. I feel very touched to have had the hummingbird visit me, and firmly believe that it had meaning (no matter what some skeptics I've met may say). My thoughts are with you during this terrible time in your life. I'm still struggling every day, so I can't tell say that I know how or when it gets easier, but I have to hope that it does. Take care and be well, Loren