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LaNiNi03

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  1. I am now 20, going to be 21 in October, and I lost my mother the day after my 18th birthday. Meaning in just a few short months, it is going to be three years since my mom has died, and to me it sometimes feels like it was just yesterday. My mom and I were extrememly close throughout the 18 years I had her in my life. She was my best friend, she knew everything about me, besides the most important thing there was for a mother to know about her child. That her daughter was being abused by the man she married. I kept that a secret for 7 years of my life, and it finally came out in my Junior year of HS through a poem. When I told her I could just see the hurt in her eyes, and it was just 6 short mnths later when she passed away. She passed away without giving me a chance to say goodbye to her, and without being given the chance to say I love you. Give her a hug and akiss goodbye. What I got for one of my last conversations was me saying, thats okay, I hope you die, but you just have to wait until after my 18th bday. Those words haunt me everyday, b/c she did infact wait, she died the day after my 18th bday. I would give anything to take those words away, but I know that is impossible. TO this day it still hurts ever so much to think of my mom. and there are times inwhich I reach for the phone to call her to talk to her, but then to be hit with the reality of life. People in my life tell me 3 years is long enough to get over the pain and grieving of loosing someone, but I am far from 'getting over it'. How do you go on when the only person who resembled love in your life, the only person who made life worth living dies??? Not only did I loose my mom that day, I lost myself, still trying to find it.
  2. This poem is very beautiful, and it is very true. It really made me stop and think while I was reading about about my own loss. It really does capture how it feels once you loose someone that means so much to you...
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