I know EXACTLY how you feel. My grandmother has been in the hospital for 3 weeks and kept aspirating so with much agonizing agreed to a feeding tube. Once the feeding tube was in place she started having teriffic pain and drs couldn't figure out what was wrong. We were told on Monday that she only has 3-5 days left to live. She hasn't had ANYTHING to eat since 10/14 and is approaching the end. They started her morphine drip today to ease the pain. Our family was so relieved when my grandmother agreed to that feeding tube. I think it was our selfishness that gave us the relief. Because my grandmother has suffered tremendously from that decision. The feeding tube only prolonged the inevitable and at my grandmothers expense. I truly understand how you feel and hope this will get easier with time. Its absolutely consuming me. I will be praying for you and your family as well as my own.
