This is very difficult to do. I have visited this site before recently when my friend in America told me about it after she heard the news about Steven and his best friend Eddie. I wanted to say so much but because it is very painful to think about I decided not to. Today must be the right day to tell someone. Steven & Eddie died in a car accident on the 27th of September 2007, seconds from home, Steven was 22 years old and Eddie was 23. We still havent had the inquest yet, we have to wait until February to find out if possible the cause of the accident. When we got the dreaded knock on the door to tell us our son had been in an accident, they asked what sort of car he had, did he have a friend called Eddie, nothing was going in, time was wasting and I just wanted to get to the hospital, that is when they said I didnt have to go because they had died. I still had this great need to be with my son, but again I was told no. Then they told us that the car had set on fire and they couldnt get them out. Our world just imploded and I havent rested since. Both sets of parents had to endure DNA test to confirm their identities. So we have been deprived of saying goodbye, that hurts. Eddies Dad lives just a few doors away and we try to comfort each other as much as we can but we are so wrapped up in our own grief it is difficult. I miss my sons hugs and kisses, his saying night, night god bless at bedtime, his gentle words of comfort telling me not to worry and his love that he showed without shame. I miss Eddie passing my front door with a wave and a nod, coming into the house to wake Steven up, sending him upstairs to rouse him. The pain is quite unbearable, I dont know how I have got so far, but God willing with the love of our family and friends we can make it through another day.
