Art, It's been one month today since I lost my best friend and life partner Vern. The holidays certainly aren't helping any... but you worry me when you say "I have come to seriously question whether I want to continue living in this condition". What do you mean by that? Your wife would never want you to do anything as to take your life... so, just put your head down, pray, and head through the grief. Life is hard, and none of us get through it without hard knocks. We all will lose many people before we pass on ourselves. Loneliness is the pits, but she is at peace, so be glad she's in a better place. She would NOT want you to carry on like this, and be so unhappy. You can get through this.. just ask God's help. Hugs, Christine