kens wife

My husband after 31 years passed away on june 10, 2004, my father passed away the same day 26 years earlier. I was told 14 years ago that he had only 6 months, I know we had extra time but the time spent was horrific and at the end I did not know how I was going to make it the thing is I right know don't know how I am going to make it. I have done all the right things, but I was not ready to see him go. I have my days, I guess today is one, I am scared, because like in his life I did things that no one else could do, I worked full time took care of my husband myself no matter what the leaps or hurddles, now I have done all the things he did or would have done, now I am done, what do I do with me. Pam