Hi Robynn I found this site too, to try and understand how I am feeling. We lost out Dad on the 28th August this year, he was terminally ill with cancer, between diagnosis and his passing, we had 5 months. It is awful to watch your parent die, to know that there isn't anything you can do to prevent it, to know that the doctor can't provide a pill or cure and say, take it for 7 days and you'll be fine. It is awful to watch a perfectly healthy man deteriate to skin and bones - it is awful to be helpless. Four days before he died, he called us together and talked to each one - we are 6, and to each of our spouses. He told us he loved us, blessed us and told us to to be kind to one another and to look after our mother. "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as Christ forgave you.' Eph 4:32 We were with Dad when he died, and helped our mother make the arrangements for his funeral. Since Dads passing, we have been told that we were lucky, that we had time and opportunity to say goodbyes and to say all the things that we wanted to say - that it wasn't sudden, and that we weren't left with regrets. A business associate shared with me that the night before his Dad died, he was going to pay a visit, but thought it was too late and he'd see him tomorrow. There was no tomorrow for him, his Dad died of a heart attack that night. I live 2 hours away - spend as much time with your Mum - talk, laugh and cry. Tell your Mum you will miss her, don't have regrets. I hope that you have support from friends and family that enable you to do this. All my prayers and support to you at this most difficult time. Johnnita
