Hi, how are you? I just wanted to put down in words how much my mother my best friend ment to me. I lost my mother on September 24, 1993 she was 40 years old and would be 51 years old this year. I was 10 years old when I lost my mother. my mother had taken her own life and I do not blame her for what happened i knew that she loved me and my brother and she was the best mother she could be. She was my best friend and the most wonderful and loving woman in my life. she made me they way i am today and has given me the strength to carry on any time i get down. they way my mother had lived her life had shown me that she would have never given up on me and that i should never give up on myself. i have gone through alot of hardships mentally, physically, and financially. i have gone through times when i though i was going to die and i thought i could not go on but just thinking of her watching over me i could not let her see me like that and that gave me the streangth to carry on. she lived her life to the fullest and was always there to better herself. she served in the United States Marine Corps and retired shortly before her death. she left behind two loving sons. She never remarried after her and my father got divorced. i have been told by many people that i need to get over it and that it has been to long for me to be keeping on with this pain that i feel. i am now 21 years old and wishing that i had the opertunity to tell my mother that i am gay. I know she is watching over me and am sure she already knows but i wanted to see her face to face when she found out. i was to young then to know so i couldnt have done it when she was alive but i am sure she would be proud of me no matter what. she loved going bowling and hanging out with her girlfriends. she was an avid fan of Cheers and M*A*S*H*. she loved taking us out to the park and just sitting on the porch while we rode our bike. she hated it when i would hide her corn beef and hash when we would have it for super . but what i love most about her is that she was her own person and has taught me to be that same. i will walays love her and will always remember her for the rest of my life. letting her down is not an option. I just want to end this by saying that she is always in my heart and will live on for all eternity.
