Dear Lynn, When I read your letter it touched my heart. My husband of 58 years passed away on Sept.6,2007. He took his life rather than put himself and the family thru what he thought would be a long and painful ordeal with no real quality of life at the end. He was diagnosed with esophageal cancer and had just started his chemo and radiation therapy. He was facing surgery to remove most of his esophagus after the chemo and radiation therapy. Previous to his diagnosis he had been thru several other surgeries. An endarterectomy and bypass surgery. He had diabetes and many other problems that he was dealing with. I felt then and still feel that I should have done more and I wonder why I didn't pick up on his intention to end his life. I loved him dearly and miss him more than words can express. I have so much guilt and wonder if he thought I wouldn't be there for him thru what he was facing. I pray that he is at peace and I hope with time I will find peace also. I am having a difficult time letting go. I know what you are going thru. May we both find peace this coming year. Terry
