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martyt, or an hov employee. can you please call me i am lost on this coumpter thing and i think i don't know what i am doing! i do like it but i need help, i can give you my email or # do not know what to do, i can call my local counseler to pass you my # help ? .. thanks deb

I went to my first counseling session last night, I don’t know what to think. everyone there where widow's, I was the only one that had lost a parent. I felt out of place. I went home and cried all night just because of my dad not the counseling! my eyes were so swollen this morning. I went to see my doctor he said he wants me to go see a psychologist. He says I have a lot going on in my life (who doesn’t) tomorrow is another day.

i do not know how to reply i hope this works. life in general has been hell. i have been so mad at the world every thing is going wrong. my camera broke, on christmas eve of all times. it cost 150.00 to fix it, then i find a 2x better one for 20.00 more that it cost to fix the old one. my lease is up at my salon and i cant afford it anymore becouse my hair stylist found other places to go becuse of the nail smell. i opened an account at a credit union and deposited a large chech and there putting a 5 day hold on it. my husband lost his secound job. my son (he is 20)lost his job and can not pay me rent,which is only 100.00 a week but it helps, all utilities have doubled becouse he does not have a job and is home all the time. And i know its just life and these thing happen but as the saying goes enough prune jucie this to will pass. well i gone thru a gallon so far lol. i just wish i could go to sleep early and wake up early and actualy want to get out of bed and do something like clean this house.when am i going to get off my butt stop crying and want to live again. my husband makes comments under his breath and i ask what did you say and he says nothing dear. when i get mad i clean, man you should of see the house a week ago. so i think i am going to go clean and forget about every thing for awhile, i am going to go to the west valley meeting on monday night maybe that will help i have not done that yet. deb

MY DAD GOT LUNG CANCER IN 2001 AND WENT TO HIS BRAIN AND GOT A BRAIN TUMER, BECAME CANCER FREE BUT IT MESSED WITH HIS SIGHT AND HEARING, STARTING HAVING DEMINCHIA HE WAS CANSER FREE BUT BECAME WHEEL CHAIR BOUND HE COULD STILL GET UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM OR GET IN BED, BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN HE SLIPPED FELL BROKE HIS HIP AND DIED 9 DAYS LATER! HE WAS 74 I AM HIS BABY GIRL AT 39 AND I AM HAVING A VERY HARD TIME ALL I WANT TO DO IS STAY IN BED, I DONT WANT TO WORK, I CRY ALL THE TIME, MY DOC GAVE ME VALUEM. MY HUSBAND SAYS I NEED TO BE STRONG AND WORK THRU THIS! I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP AND WAKE UP WITH MY DAD ALIVE AND BOTH OF US HAPPY I JUST WANT TO STOP CRYING [attachmentid=240]