Hi, My name is Debbie and I lost my husband on 9/30 so unexpectly that I still can't believe he is gone. I cry and cry and feel so lonely. We had our struggles together over our 18 years together but all in all it was good. We were there for one another, we were friends and lovers and kind of just depended on one another. I once referred to us as life partners and he loved that term. His mother and his kids want a memorial service which I am finally meeting with the pastor to discuss tomorrow. I know I am going to be a mess all over again. He would have been 53 on 11/19 and I think having a memorial on his birthday would be a good thing. To be remember and loved on the day of his birth. I sure hope you don't mind me rambling on and just saying that I miss him....so much.