Hello...... I too am new to this site and have found it to be more helpful than anything else. I lost my beloved Mama this year, March 2, 2004. She was my best friend and I can completely understand how you are feeling. It is such a lonely journey to try and find a way to make sense out of life. I read something recently about how loosing someone that close is like a major wound to your heart. The wound eventually heals, but there will always be a scar. I will pray for your wound. It helps me to know that even though we may feel that we are alone, we really aren't. Also how fortunate we have been to have had that bond. One thing I am going to be doing in the near future is to try to adopt a senior citizen or two. Taking my Mama to her treatments made me realize just how many people are ALONE and scared. I am hoping to help, and feel that by doing so it may also slowly start to close the wound in my heart, while bringing some peace to someone elses. DonnaB