I'm new here, I lost my father in 1995 and just lost my mother in september. Me and my mom were very very close. Not only was she my mother she was my best friend. I called her every morning to say good morning and every night to say good night. She died a sudden death, we were told she threw a blood clot. She had open heart surgery in 1995 and everything has been great from there. I called her a 3pm, she told me she was tired and was gonna lay down for a nap. I told her I would call her back in a couple of hours, I never got that chance. Mom never made it to the bed she died beside her bed. I got the phone call at 6 pm my baby sister found her. I'm still calling her house day and night praying she would pick up. I never got the chance to say goodbye. My heart feels empty, all I do is cry. My husband and children do not know what to say to me. I dont go out anymore, my mom knew everyone, we live in a small town. Some people did not know mama passed and would come up to me and ask how mama was.I get angry when people come up to me and say I know how you are feeling, when they still have their parents. I want to scream and say no you don't. I not only lost both my parents by I feel I also lost my sister. My oldest sister snapped when mama passed away, we had to commit her, the doctors say they dont know if she will ever snap back. She doesnt know who we are, not even her children or grand children. Me and her daughter went to visit her sunday, the doctor told her I was her sister and my neice was her daughter, she just looked at us. I ask if I could hug her, when I held her in my arms she said if your my sister please take me home. It broke my heart into. The doctors wont let her come home with us. I feel like I am dying inside. I don't know what to do except sit and cry.I don't understand, and keep asking God why. Thanks for listening I need to get it out. Neicey
