hello i lost my mom jan 26 2004 its ishas been very hard time of my life. my mom was in the hospital for about six month before she died i did every thing for her i was there every day and night. when we frist took mom in it was for a stroke the stroke left her bed riden she was no longer able to to for herself. after six month of testing they found out my mom had 4 stage cancer 1 week later i was called my the doctor to get here things do not look good so the family was all around mom bedside as she took her last breath her eyes roll down and looked right at me and i felt her go right tought me. i go mom grave just about ever night after work my family ask me why do i go there so much that mom not there she in heaven but to me that was the last place i seen mom so feel that i have to be there this and when im there i ask her to give me a sing that she i ok but i never get any thing so some time i thing maybe there is no after life after all if there was you thing a loved would want there family to know there ok is it wrong to think to think like that almost a year later and feel the same as i did the moment after mom death when dose it get better
